I'm Learning...

In the past week or so I've had the opportunity to see and learn that this life is not about some end result. I feel like in the experiences I've had recently I am truly starting to lean that this life is about the process. Raising support can be very difficult, and I am starting to imagine how excited I am going to be the day God provides 100% of my funding to move to South Africa on STINT. I find myself thinking about it a lot actually. The other day I was praying with a friend and one of our STINT Team leaders, and I realized that I was focusing too much on the end result. She has said it several times before, but I think for the first time it really sank in that "it is about the process, not the result". I am starting to see what it looks like to walk through it with the Lord, instead of asking for a way out of it. 

I confess that I am someone who has struggled and continues to struggle with wanting to perform and meet some standard. It would be a shame for me to fall into some standard during this amazing but challenging process of raising support. The standards I've come to set for myself in the past have always limited the way I see God moving in my life and in the lives of those around me. My interactions this week have helped me see that there is so much to gain in the process of pursuing the Lord in this. It is not about making it to 100%, and its not about meeting some goal I came up with. This process is about finding God in every conversation, support appointment, and every new relationship built. I am learning that this life is about finding God in every step made during our days. 

It's been a privilege finding the Lord in every meeting. I have been so blessed to meet with people and have them share their hearts with me. In seeing and experiencing their passion to see God glorified, I've come to realize that I would never want to move to South Africa without taking all of these people with me. I am so thankful that God has used this process of raising support to teach me to look for him in all that I am doing, and that it is okay to depend on others to help me pursue His perfect will. 

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to sit with me. I have learned so much in those times.